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So the past couple of weeks have been...
CRAZY.
I found out I had a serious issue
and I had to let my sexxxy know
Which was a hard thing to discuss
But he's still there
I find him absolutely amazing...
Cuz even when I think he'll leave me
Or should leave me
He doesn't...and I know he really fuckin cares
We had the house all to ourselves for about
Ten Hours
Which was really nice beings we won't have
A lot of alone time cuz Frankie is comin home
He'll have an 8 o'clock curfew for like a year
Or some bullshit
But really the more time I spend wit him
The more I fall in Love wit him
I do feel again...some things I don't
But I do feel like I'm in Love again
Not that bullshit Love which is known as
"INFATUATION"
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| BUSY BUSY
Like a fuckin bee
Started to work
and get somethin done
Successfully
Almost done school
But after it's all over...
What will be left of me?
Love is good...Love is great
But lately when I get stoned
I instantly hate my whole existence
Like...is it jus cuz I don't wanna be alone?
And you...you fuckin demon...
Your still in the back of my mind
Inside of my fears
And finally...I know I can shed tears
How far did you really push me?
How far did I really go?
Whats inside myself...I don't even know
Cuz I let it go unnoticed for so long
That now I see...I was in the wrong
Someday you will go away
Someday I'll feel again
But today is not that day
To finally feel that way ...
I fuckin hate you so bad
The thought of you drives me mad...
I don't want to think anymore...
<fuckinshit
Kelsey Lin
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| LAST SHOT.
For summer that is.
Goin down the shore wit my family
All the way till Tuesday.
But thats alright, cuz...
I get to drink all the
my body can handle
So ode to my vacation.
New Jersey court system is giving me
A headache
And it's really pissing me off...
Holy fines out the ass for him...
NOT me.
But, until I return
<dielikefuckNJ
Kelsey Lin
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| HERES TO BIGGER & BETTER THANGS
Gots myself a job
At...
A linen store
YAY bedding and curtains galore
Excited to finish up High School
Cuz now I know what I want to do
Holy...
Corrections Officer
It should have been obvious I'd do that
Wit my life haha
So everybody
Heres to Bigger & Better Thangs
No more wasting time
Claiming that everything is fine
No more partying day in and day out
This gone be a new thang that I'm all bout
No more excuses on why I can't do something
Cuz the warmth of new light shines upon me
The light has finally reached me
In my darkest hour
No more of this off an on sweet & sour
Cuz in all my trials & tribulations...I have the power
Heres to Bigger & Better Thangs
I feel so good, I can't exactly describe
The craziness I feel inside
I know this is right and I've been on the wrong path
For far to long it's time to make a stand
And move the fuck on
Heres To Bigger & Better Thangs
The bell inside my head has finally fuckin rang
<Greatthingsbouttobehappenin
Kelsey Lin
This made me really happy...SO WATCH IT! someone spent millions to make this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qTF0ry89GBA
This has nothing to do wit anything...but its cool to look at
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| PURE ENERGY
Vincent is back in my life
And it feels good to know
Someone who is trying
For me.
I decided I'd get my shit together
No more drugs
Parties
Assholes
Scumbags
I'm going to Church on Sunday
I need to surround myself
With Positive uplifting people
No more downers
Scumbags hang wit Scumbagz
Bring each other down
Thats how it goes
Life.
I'm not really makin sense of much rite now
Just simply because of the fact nothing makes sense
Vincent should be out, shouldn't of even talked to me
But yet he's still here for me...thats Love rite there
Cuz I am one fucked up individual
But I gotta stop right this moment
Before it's to late and I'm in a cell for a max of 5 years
Before I commit a felony
And it becomes a wrap for me
I'm a blessed girl for having You still
Rene is having a baby all the sudden
and I also talked to Art today.
About my shit initially...
But it turned into something else
Apparently we aren't over cuz when were about to go
This came out of his mouth
"Alright Baby call me later, I Love You sweetheart, I do miss much about you."
And then *click*
I couldn't even speak...totally breathless
Who does that...?
I don't know shit jus gets crazier and more complicated as time goes on.
I go back to finish high school on the 9th
I'm hoping for this job at the linen store it opens on the 8th
I need a job
After high school I'm gone go to school to be a CO
It's the perfect job for me
I gotta get my head in the game and concentrate on me
And simply me. Selfish fucked up or not
I need to do me.
But, I gotta fix certain shit.
Like things with Justin...I don't think I can fix that
I didn't write my full thoughts and maybe its a wrap
But so much other shit is goin wrong
And It bothers me that we fallin apart.
<I'mgladyourstillaround...sometimeslovecomesaround
Kelsey Lin
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